Monthly Archives: December 2015

Getting through

I’ve just finished my first grad year.

I am exhausted. My body feels like lead, I can’t concentrate for more than 15 minutes, and my BGLs are everywhere. Again. Lack of routine and having no concentration (“Did I bolus? Where’s my pump? Did I test?”) means that my blood sugars look like a rollercoaster, and I feel like I’m living on one. Wake up at 15, fall down at 2…I’ve pushed my body the entire year, and I’ve finally stopped for more than 24 hours and all of a sudden my body doesn’t know what to do with itself.

“YOU GET A COLD! YOU GET A MIGRAINE! YOUR WHOLE BODY GETS SICK! YAY!”

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However, do you know what’s underrated? What helps with this fatigue and feeling utterly crappy?

Cats. Dogs. Warm fuzzy pets who sit on your lap and just want a good scratch under the chin, who don’t judge you when all you do all day is binge watch “Please Like Me” and eat random concoctions of food (avocado and chilli flakes anyone?)

Insulin. Migraine meds. Cat. That’s what my prescription should be.

 

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Surviving the holidays

This is an article I wrote for DEDA, the organisation I run with three other amazing women who have type 1 diabetes. Have a read if you’re curious about the obstacles that those with an eating disorder and diabetes can face. Happy Holidays! xx

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The holiday season when you have an eating disorder is hard.

The holiday season when you have diabetes is hard.

What happens when you’re lucky enough to have both?

When you have two illnesses that are so interconnected, it’s hard to know where one stops and the other begins. How do we get ourselves through this time of year, when it’s full of triggering and difficult situations, and many of our healthcare support systems are taking a well-deserved break?The answer to this problem is to tackle it step by step – there are so many aspects to your eating disorder and diabetes that it would be ridiculous to expect yourself to conquer your challenges in one go!

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“Should you be eating that?”
“Aren’t you diabetic? “
“That’s a lot on your plate”
“You’re eating nothing!”

These comments are hard enough when you have diabetes, but add in an eating…

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burnout, black clouds, and the beach

Blogging has been sporadic at best this year – just a note, your graduate year of teaching kills you slowly and turns you into a nana who goes to bed at 8.

2015 has definitely been the most difficult year of my life. I thought my diagnosis year was difficult, but this was a whole other kettle of fish. I started a professional graduate job with only two months training, worked full-time while completing a Masters degree, was diagnosed with another chronic condition, co-founded DEDA , volunteered, and tried to have a social life. My physical and mental health has deteriorated, and diabetes burnout has been pretty much consistent. However during this week, Tuesday was basically the first day off from work or study I’ve had since my Masters intensive in November 2014, and dear lord it was absolutely glorious!

I went to the beach, did nothing but read and swim, and the only reminder of diabetes was the pump on my hip. My bruises were hidden, I was sitting at a comfortable 9.3, and I didn’t even have to worry about the water (thanks Animas waterproofing!).

No pump alarms, no ketones, no hypos,  just a book and a pair of bathers. I hate diabetes, I hate my body, but I definitely don’t hate how lucky I am to be able to lie in the sun and be comfortable in the knowledge that I have access to medication and healthcare. So many people around the world struggle to even access insulin, and a day off has helped me reset my mind. Sometimes we can get so caught up in our own problems that we fail to take a step back and realise that we are actually incredibly blessed.

I am educated, have a roof over my head, work in a job that I love, and live in a country that subsidises my life saving medication.  May 2016 bring a newfound appreciation of my blessings, and a lifting of the black cloud that has hung over 2015.

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